I’ve been VERY quiet these past few weeks and it’s not because I haven’t had anything to say…..Anyone who knows me I’ve ALWAYS got loads to say….but you see I’ve been processing.
They don’t tell you how HARD a move is. And I mean REALLY hard. We’ve got a lot of blessings and we were really blessed with how easy our move was. It has however come with many sacrifices….some of which we never dreamed would come into play.
I think the biggest has been the financial sacrifice. We always knew we would move down here and move to lower paying salaries etc and we made the choice knowing that we would have to sacrifice, but it’s been hard because we’ve sacrificed a few dreams and wishes in the process and all the while I hear God quietly whispering into my ear: “You are exactly where you are supposed to be”
In many ways I look at these challenges as tests for Rich and I:
I am learning patience: I am learning that you cannot always have what you want when you want and that the blessing in that, is that you make right choices that are sound and based on the head not the heart.
I am learning that we have plenty: I am learning that we live a life of excess and abundance and that we are able to get by on far less than we used to.
I am learning to lean on God: Whilst there are many days that I fail horribly at this, this year has been a phenomenal year for me in terms of my faith. I really and truly have grown closer to the big man upstairs. And even though I have my days where I wonder where the hell the money will come from I know deep down inside we will be looked after.
So yes I’m quiet but that’s also ok for now. We are concentrating on settling and just being a family in our new town Ballito we now call home